Just Wondering

Will anyone cry when I die? And if so why?  I am listening now, but I wouldn’t be  then.  The tears aren’t mine , but to make you feel better. I don’t mean it rudely . What I’m saying is true. What we have now we wouldn’t have then. What we share now later wouldn’t matter.

So what am I trying to say here?  What is important  and what is not? What is the meaning of life?  Thoughts I have pondered.  I don’t think  I am all alone. I’m sure  others have questions too. To actually realize the meaning of mortality. Stop trying to beat it or get around it.

We have no idea what is going to happen next. Yet we spend all of our time pondering and preparing for it and we miss what is happening now.  I think the better choice of words here should be me instead of we.  What I am trying to say is  enlightenment  is sought not bought or taught.  

I must say I am perplexed not depressed. So much of what I have worked my whole life for isn’t  all that important.  None of  these THINGS will fit through the porthole when it is time to move on. I must admit these are not easy lessons to learn. If there is any consolation it is not too late to learn.  And to make some changes.

In going forward I try to live in the moment.nick